Whoa! What a week! I had the hardest time deciding what to write about this week. It feels like there is so much going on in my world right now. One “aha!” moment after another, puzzle pieces fitting into place. I LOVE IT!
During the last MKE webinar, Mark talked about doing the work and watching things inexplicably happen. I feel like that is happening everywhere I turn lately.
I have always struggled with motivation, ambition, getting things done or following through with a project. I think I had the worst case of the “I don’t wanna’s” I’ve ever seen. I would see something that needed to be taken care of and think I should do it, but I could almost audibly hear my mind say “I don’t wanna”, and I’d head for the recliner and mindlessly watch TV or play some stupid game on my phone….for hours! Then, I would sit around and complain because I never got anything done. I’m pretty sure when there was something that had to be done, I exhausted myself before I even started because of the mental argument I had going on in my head about getting it done. What a crazy, defeating cycle!
However, in the last two weeks, I haven’t heard that voice saying “I don’t wanna”, I just do it. I have gotten things done, things that I have been saying for months that I was going to do. I am busy all day long and have given up mindless TV and phone games. It feels amazing!! I used to wonder how people did that….how do they keep going when they “don’t wanna”? Have you ever heard the joke about God jiggling the spoon when he was doling out brains? Well, I seriously thought that must have happened to me when He was doling out motivation and ambition.
I used to dream of being motivated and productive. I had come to a realization that if I kept dreaming about it, it would happen someday. But like Og Mandino says in The Greatest Salesman in the World…experience will get you there, but it’s gonna take forever and you’ll probably be a goner by the time you figure it out. How cool is it that in just four short weeks, I am that person I used to dream of being? I’m doing things, without mental argument, without thinking “it’s too hard”, “it’ll take too much time”, “I don’t wanna”. (yes, I was a whiner) I’m just doing them. I’m getting s#%t done! I feel productive. I feel motivated.
I can’t explain the change. I don’t feel like I made a conscious decision to make that kind of change. I took this course to figure out what my purpose in life was. My mind is blown that in just a few short weeks I went from an unmotivated couch potato to a productive, motivated adult. (insert Happy Dance here)
Could it be repeating “DO it now! do IT now! do it NOW!”, or promising to do one task a week, or connecting to that amazing world within is what’s creating these results? Four weeks ago, I would have told you I thought that was all crazy business. Today, I’m convinced this course is on to something incredibly amazing. Today, I’m all in. 100%.